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It's Been YearsIt's been ye by Alyvana, literature

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It's Been YearsIt's been ye

It's been years since I've tasted anything but ashes and the salt of my own tears when they stray down onto my cheeks and over my cracked lips. I don't remember what it feels like to be truly happy, but I know you were with me, and I know I could feel the sun on my skin, then. It's like my whole world is decaying while I'm lying here struggling to dream of something other than shadows and the restless sound of blood as it hits the cold stone floor. And strands of better days keep passing me by, barely seen, like old photographs caught on the wind.

About Blank by Alyvana, literature

The Need to Run, The Want To Stay by Alyvana, literature

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The Need to Run, The Want To Stay

The Need to Run, The Want To Stay I'm sitting in my car, and all I want to do is drive away from here, drive away from you, drive away from the "what ifs" of everything we could be. And it's been hours since I could breathe properly, and seconds since you ran another lap of my mind. You're like a fixture here, your face a shining imprint on the backs of my eyes. And my chest aches for you, there are chills down my spine, but you don't want me like you think I want you. This isn't all or nothing, I just want to try. And I know you're afraid, 'cause we didn't work last time, but let's see where this goes, maybe we'll both

Sad, Sad Eyes by Alyvana, literature

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Sad, Sad Eyes

Sad, Sad Eyes She's not here anymore, but you are, racing against red lights like there's some chance you can reach her. And they pity you, those people staring down at you with their sad, sad eyes. Because you lost her. She's gone and it's your fault and nothing can change that. So you'll run, and you'll try, and you'll hope, because your world will crumble if you don't. But she'll still be gone, and you'll still be here, with those sad, sad eyes.

The Next Ten Minutes by Alyvana, literature

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The Next Ten Minutes

The Next Ten Minutes Tired eyes and restless hands, I can't be still without you. These moments drag worse than years, and all any of us want is to be held and told it will all be over soon. Dreams and hopes are useless here, in the dark recesses of empty minds. Hollow smiles and ironic laughter prevail over all. And you were the sun, veiled in the smoke of a burning world, the water we all needed to survive the next ten minutes, until the silence fell and shattered like glass raining from the sky.

Dreams of the Sleepless by Alyvana, literature

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Dreams of the Sleepless

Dreams of the Sleepless And here we should be sleeping, because that's what dreamers do. Following, always, the glass bottomed footsteps you leave behind in the pale green grass. Trailed only by the faintest whispers of noise, in shadows and wind. Sound that chills the blood, leaving frost on those who know the sleepless walk. Even your bones feel the ice, in moments like this, and fear is a tangible thing, biting at heels, and throats. Flesh rent, the mind quakes and turns to run. Searching for a safe haven in the dark. A place to hide head and heart.

The Truth In Your Eyes by Alyvana, literature

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The Truth In Your Eyes

The Truth In Your Eyes Do you see her there? The smiling girl with the honey-spun fly-away hair, tears welling in her winter-blue eyes? Do you know what she feels, the things she has seen? Or do you care at all, are her words too whetherbeaten and simple, for ears as soft as yours? Do you know the love she feels when she looks right into your soul? She sees the best of you, even if you don't see it yourself.

Broken Like Wishes by Alyvana, literature

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Broken Like Wishes

Broken Like Wishes Mascara smears your pillowcases now, and your fingernails are broken like wishes. Your smile tastes like cigarettes and lost dreams, but you've finally found a nice boy, someone to hold your hand in the night, when the darkness and silence become unbearable. And my head is swimming with a thousand words I'll never be able to say to you- a thousand moments I lost when the clouds rolled in, and I blinked, just once. And this life is the craziest movie you'll never be able to watch, fast forward into realtime, baby, you'll never leave this place alive. But I'll be there for every step you forget to tak

Potential by Alyvana, literature

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Potential

Potential. Superficial. Starstruck, and hopeless, mindless of the decisions you are failing to make, every second of every day. Every breath you take is nothing but wishful thinking- a bashful hope at something better than yesterday's yesterdays, and the dismal future you can just see looming ahead of you like some kind of disease-ridden cloud of potential let downs. Yet you're still smiling, still hell-bent on hanging on with every ounce of whatever it is you've got left. And darling, I hope you make it, and feel the sun shining on your weather beaten face, just once, before you kiss these crazy winds goodbye.

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The Seperation by nuggetgirl, literature

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The Seperation

The climb and descent of the stairway An ever awkward visitation to a parent When the only place we belonged Was an outgrown bed room With a shared wall Full of a child’s Morse code Brother was send out again Into cold air, “to cool off” A businesswoman with hair like mine Asked a few silent questions, before the confrontation A door shut tightly, exhausting thin air And anger heard too often, from the other side I alone, listened Then went, out the door, to December To wait with my brother

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About Alyvana

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Aug 29
Canada
Deviant for 16 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: British Columbia
Favourite genre of music: Basically anything...
MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano (The old one)
Shell of choice: O.o What's a shell??
Wallpaper of choice: Right now, it's Stonehenge.
Skin of choice: My own..
Favourite cartoon character: Gir
Personal Quote: Don't Let The World Get In Your Way

Favourite Movies

The Princess Bride, Blood and Chocolate, Monty Python's The Holy Grail

Favourite Writers

HP Lovecraft, Emily Browning, or Edgar Allen Poe... or my writing teacher, Patricia Mackay

Favourite Games

Ratchet And Clank

Tools of the Trade

Pencil, My Mind, and Picassa 3

Other Interests

Writing, Photography, Hanging out with friends, Running, Singing, Drawing

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Alyvana

Oct 21, 2013

Ummmm...

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So... NaNo is like, really soon. LIKE REALLY SOON! Guys. GUYS. I'm freaking stoked. Weirdest combination of excited and terrified EVER, seriously. And overtired. Already. Ha. Honestly though, I'm WAY more excited (and already proud) of my NaNo2013 project than I think I ever was about 2012's. I can't wait to get going! Anyway. I'm going to awkwardly leave now, before I seem any more ridiculous. Ha. *Cough* Stay golden, Aly

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Alyvana

Jun 26, 2013

Exciting Times!

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Why hello there!! It's been a while! (That seems to be how I've been starting these entries for a while now... I should really get more active on here again.) I come bearing exciting news though! As some of you know, I participated in NaNoWriMo last year... and I "won" !! I self published my first novel Never online as an ebook through Amazon and Kindle at the beginning of this month. If you want to check it out, here's a http://www.amazon.com/Never-Alysha-van-Akker/dp/1490318178/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1372209824&sr=8-1&keywords=alysha+van+akker ! Other than that, I have started planning and outlining and timelining (is timelinin

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Alyvana

Nov 9, 2012

NaNoWriMo.....

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is making it VERY hard for me to sleep! I'm halfway to the target number of words (which is 50,000) and I've barely been able to write for three days! It's all I can think about half the time, and it's giving me a headache (but that could be because I'm spending so much time staring at my computer screen.. -_-) IN OTHER NEWS........... I might be going up North to work on the rigs for a few months, make some good money so I can pay off a big chunk of my Student Loan and save more for my England trip (which is quickly becoming my England, NDL, And possibly other places, trip, lol) and uh yeah. I'm very quickly running out of steam here, prob